Archive for March, 2006

Of course.

Friday, March 31st, 2006

In my spare time, such as it is, I am now taking the NYIP (New York Institute of Photography) Professional Photography course. I thought it was about time to fill in some of the photographic gaps and do some formal training.

The NYIP course is a correspondence course with tapes, DVDs and personal feedback, and I can take it at my own pace: I can complete it in 6 months or in three years. I went this way because local courses (at the local college) are pretty useless to me: they are superficial, they need me to always be here, and they focus (pun intended yada) on darkroom and film.

I was pretty skeptical at first. The noise surrounding the course is pretty distracting and a lot of it is very cheesy: a fake “press card”; “valuable kits” consisting of cheap Chinese rubbish; talk of “faculty” and the “dean”, and so on, is offputting. But when you look past that, the course works very well indeed: much better than I would have thought.

The idea is that you read the lesson book while being guided by the tapes. And this idea works very well. Reading a book is not very valuable; hearing a one hour training discussion on it actually drives home the point.

Assignments are a good idea, too. I am a competent technical photographer, but to have to do a shot of a vista, or of an object in motion, legitimises spending time on it and doing it well. I am sure the technical gaps inmy photography will be filled in in the next year, but more importantly, I’ll start seeing better. The personal feedback (on tape, a tutor responds to your coursework) will be very valuable in this too.

I shall keep you all informed. Meanwhile, recommended.

Oh, and the $1100 course fee is tax deductible in Canada.

Atheists for Jesus

Sunday, March 26th, 2006

In the last few days, I have seen pacifists being criticised left, right and centre.

Margaret Wente, the Globe and Mail’s resident ultra right-wing (some might say “fascistoid”) columnist, criticised the Christian Peacekeepers (of course, she would) for trying to avoid war. People on this blog have called the avoidance of war naive. People who think we should stop war are dangerous, naive, dumb: they are misguided, or even idiots. They want peace: well, they are certainly not to be taken seriously. They are dangerous.

Well, I guess even though I am neither a Christian nor a peacekeeper, that makes me a naive idiot. Does no-one realise how horrible war is? Perhaps this will help. People think in abstractions and cannot easily think of personal circumstances. All of you who think that war is “necessary”, please stop for a moment. Give me a minute, ok?

Think of any member of your family being blown up by a “necessary” bullet. Imagine you are Jean Charles de Menezes. Do you know what a head blown up by bullets looks like? Someone in my office the other day called it a “bloodflower”. That is a very good description. Imagine a skull blasted open in all directions with brains and blood on all sides.

“Perverse”, is the only word I can think of. Sex is not perverse. Violent death is. There are web sites I could take you to, if you wanted to see the images: but you really, really do not want to go there. Things no person should ever see.

If that image is not good enough, think of that 12-year old Iraqi boy who lost both arms in the necessary American Iraqi bombing operation. “Will I be able to get new arms?”, was his desperate question. No, kid, no arms for you ever again; a life in some ways worse than death: and that was, eh, necessary. To think otherwise is naive. Stop your whining.

Do you know what it feels like when all your rights are suddenly null and void and you and your family are pushed into a wall by a cursing soldier with an AK47? Or you have your husband shot dead because he could not miraculously guess what the 18-year old soldier in front of you wants you to so? Do you know what a violent death is like?

I have seen enough violence to have a good idea: a good enough idea to know that no-one should ever find out more. Yes, of course the world is violent. But that does not excuse using abstractions to justify killing people. The Christian peacekeepers are wrong: pushing religion, in particular Christianity, on anything is wrong. But give them credit. I do. I am pretty sure that if I ever have my skull blown off by an AK47, it is very much more likely to have Margaret Wente behind the trigger than a Christian peacekeeper.

Here is the weird thing. I am not a Christian, but I am sounding more and more like one. Whatever happened to “turn the other cheek”? or to “He who is without sins cast the first stone”? Whatever happened to the hippie spirit behind Christianity? I think we need Atheists For Jesus.

I am feared

Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
It seems that Americans think that atheists are more of a threat to The American Way Of Life than recent immigrants, muslims, gays or lesbians. Atheists are, it appears, the group Americans are least willing to allow their children to marry.This recent study shows how much of a theocracy America really is.Many of the study’s respondents associated atheism with an array of moral indiscretions ranging from criminal behavior to rampant materialism and cultural elitism. I would sit here and think about this, but I have no time: I am off to steal another Rolex and buy a book the peasants will not understand.

I am feared… I am flattered!

Stand. A. Taken

Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
As I write and read my blog, I realise more and more that I am taking a stand. The 1970s must be catching up with me: I feel that I need to say what I think and stand up for what I believe in. If I don’t, who will? So allow me to rant for a few minutes.What do I believe in?Killing is wrong. War is wrong, except if you are attacked. A few hundred hotheads with bomb belts flying into buildings does not constitute an attack in the sense of war. Lying to your citizens is wrong (no, Saddam was not a friend of Osama’s. Yes, Saddam was put into power by the USA: I know, I was in Iraq in the 80’s during the Iran-Iraq war, when US personnel there were training Saddam’s men). Just because Iraq is Arab does not make it Terrorist.

People are people, not abstractions. There is no “collateral damage”. Tell the parents of Jean Charles de Menenez that he is the victim of terrorists, not of the policemen who fired eight or nine bullets into his head. Tell the 12-year old Iraqi boy who lost both his arms in a US bombing that he is the unfortunate victim of necessity. Tell the wife of the taxi-driver in Kabul who was killed last week by Canadian soldiers that it’s his own fault. Tell the between 35,000 and 100,000 widows and widowers in Iraq that their loss was necessary to depose their leader. Tough.

Civil liberties are essential. They are the only thing that precents us descending into totalitarianism again. Governments by nature want to be totalitarian. Civil liberties prevent that from happening. Also, it takes a hundred times longer to create a freedom than it takes to abolish it, especially if done in the name of “security”. Hitler used that excuse too.
Erosion of civil liberties must therefore be taken extremely seriously.

So who am I? In view of what I said above, do I wear a ponytail and smoke dope? Am I a member of the Canadian Green Alternative Marxist-Leninist Trotskyist Union? No, I am a corporate manager who reads The Economist and the Globe, who wears a tie, and who debated whether to vote conservative or liberal in the last election.

So who has changed? Me? No, the fact that I used to think of myself as right of centre and now find myself quite a way left of centre is not due to me changing my opinions on anything. I would have given you the same opinions ten years ago. Only then, they were mainstream opinions. The world has changed. In particular, the USA public mood and the American government have changed, and have forced the world to change with it. Whose fault is all this? The terrorists’? No way. It is the Americans’ fault, plain and simple.

So. That feels better.

On the road

Wednesday, March 8th, 2006
I am at an airport: what is new. Having arrived back last night from the UK, I am now on my way to Los Angeles, to see a customer. And a few thoughts occur to me while I sit here in the darkened but WiFi-equipped lounge.

  • Is it the end of Moore’s law? The new IBM laptop I bought last month has the same speed processor (1.8 GHz M-class), at the same price point, as before. Or do we need the new Windows (”Intel Giveth, and Microsoft Taketh Away”)?
  • Both Windows and DRM are increasing their market stranglehold. It is getting impossible to use large TVs on high-def players without running into “NO SIGNAL - COPYRIGHT VIOLATION” warnings. The new Windows also will not play a DVD onto a high-def screen unless that screen has DRM built in. The French are about to outlaw VLC. How will all this nonsense square with my sons’ generation and their “more, better” experience so far? Will they regress to “Less, worse”? It would be a first for several generations. We will watch and see.

But my main thought, one that surely cannot be a mere bullet, is one I would not have believed when I was a child.

Imagine yourself in a society where several times a week, you must queue up, sometimes for an hour, to stand in front of officials who fingerprint and photograph you. They have the right to refuse you entry to where you are going, without giving reason. There will be no appeal if they do so. Even if you are going to your own home, they can ask many intrusive questions before they allow you there. You have no right to question these interrogations. You must not smile at these people, or make small talk, just in case. Notices warn that “verbal abuse” (of them, by you) can result in prison sentences.

After the interrogations, other officials make you open your bags and make you take off your shoes, belt, coat and jacket and walk in stocking feet through scanning devices. Your children are given the same treatment and can be interrogated too: while they are being questioned, you may not speak. If you are arrested in this world, you can be held without charge indefinitely and secretly, without access to any lawyer, legal process or communications. You can be tortured and flown to secret prisons all over the world. The prime ministers and presidents in this world say they have a personal connection with God and wage wars in His name, not in that of the law. These wars-justified-by-God kill hundreds of thousands of people, mostly innocent civilians. When we protest in this world, we protest symptoms (”a compulsory ID card would be expensive”), not principles (”a compulsory ID card would be unjust”).

That world, my friend, exists. It is not George Orwell’s 1984, Stalin’s Russia, Hitler’s Germany, or Kampuchea under the Khmer Rouge. It is of course the western world today. And amazingly, we are making it so entirely voluntarily. Bit by bit, the difference between liberal democracies and police states disappears, and we nod and approve.

As Ye Sow, So Shall Ye Reap - we will regret this. Or maybe my sons’ generation will have more sense.